It is not my intent that anyone read this. I censor myself far too much when believing I have an audience, but inspiration leads me to allow thoughts from my brain into type. There will be lots of run on sentences, mis spelled words, incomplete thoughts. that's the way I work. at least for now given my poor style and experience with writing. speaking is really more my forte´. I also don't really believe in caps at the beginning of most sentences. Unless it seems to occur to me at the time I begin it.
This blog is for me. it is a path for myself to see myself and my thoughts from a different angle. no one will read this. If you are reading this, and you are not me, then perhaps you are meant to read this. The universe is a mysterious place and my life at it's deepest level has been an experiment in learning how life works and how to master the middle ground. There are many ways to see your way to balance. And many seekers will know this is true. my path is one of learning through walking the path of both edges of the center - health/unhealth, awake/asleep, angry/happy, mad/sane. you get the picture. I cannot say, but I believe we all interact with this reality in this way, pulsing between polarities in our own way. We all have a natural step response to stimulus and the beauty lies in witness to how many different expressions of the one there are on this planet today. People are beautiful. Life is beautiful. If you choose to see the beauty and the joy. Life is also the opposite of beautiful. Life is hard, ugly, angry, struggling. The initiated seeker gets a glimpse of perfection and order to all things. Perspective. A view from a thousand feet. There are many ways to get this glimpse, I got mine through mystical and sacred plants. Once you have this view, as I have for many years, there is no going back. It is just a matter of time as you open to the will of the universe.
One and Zero. Plus and Minus. Hot and Cold. Love and Hate. This is what this particular plane is made from. Polarities. The dance begins as we oscillate between these at different rates and amplitudes. While realizing and heading in the z-axis: love. This is a misunderstood word. I cannot say I understand it better than anyone else. Just that I know there is a force and direction which has no opposite. When one considers love/hate as polar opposites, that love is different to the Love I'm talking about now. and now I'm even confusing myself. but this is the point of it. go down a path, get lost, come back to center. repeat until you don't get lost anymore. how does one become expert at the piano or other physical skill? practice, practice, practice. So why should spirituality be any different. We remember and then forget. We walk and then we fall. We laugh and then we cry. We become attached and feel pain, then we push life away and feel lonely. What is in the middle of this? Or rather, what transcends this?! perhaps it is not a straight line with a center point that I'm talking about here. There are many ways to approach the one. I see it differently all the time. it's the center point of an infinite line. it's the center of a spiraling circle, moving along in the z-axis to create a spiral. it's the center of an equilateral triangle. it's a sine wave with peaks and valleys.
back up, let's consider using a words like: growth, evolution, opening. yes, that's it. look at a hydrogen atom... unfortunately, I believe our current scientific understanding of how this little magical creature existis is incorrect so this little aside is required to explain my point. I see the proton as a pulsating breathing positively charged sphere, like a breathing lung, expanding with each in-breath, contracting with each out-breath. a revolution of the electron around the proton is a cycle of in-out breathing. and the electron is misunderstood as well, as I believe it changes polarities, electromagnetically equivalent of an inductor, as it spirals around the electric field of the pulsating proton, it takes on 4 phases of charge, +,0,-,0. this is the plotted sine wave. during it's positive phase, it is spatially repulsed by the positive charge of the proton, comes to a maximus while it's charge transitions from positive to zero, then while it tends toward negative, becomes attracted to the proton and moves closer. The proton breaths out and expands toward the negatively charged electron as they are attracted together. It compresses as the like charges repel one another. This is the basis of life! pulsating electrical charge.
We as souls, inhabiting our physical bodies (space suits for the 3D physical world), energize the center core of the physical structure with our emotions and thoughts. This has been much talked about by all of the law of attraction type folks. In my opinion, it is again, much misunderstood.
I will stop here, and focus separately on the laws and dive into how they interact to create the world of the individual, and the world of the collective.
We are One. Individuated cells of the living organic planet, part of the solar system, part of the galaxy, part of this universe. One universe that I call God.
~t
